“This is the most awful, sad and unreal situation for him. It’s a nightmare,” a source close to Combs tells PEOPLE. “He is very much struggling. He isn’t sleeping. He always had a very special relationship with Kim. Despite not being together romantically, he loved Kim. It was really true love and he is hurting badly right now.”
Diddy showed a glimpse of the candle-lit memorial on his Instagram Story on Sunday.
“It was a beautiful memorial for Kim,” the source tells PEOPLE. “Diddy is still beside himself. He was very emotional, but grateful how many of his friends showed up to honor Kim.”
The Los Angeles County Sheriff’s Office confirmed Porter’s death in a statement. Officers were alerted after a woman was found unresponsive in Toluca Lake, California. She was declared dead at 11:40 a.m. local time on Thursday.
Her health status was described as a cardiac arrest in an emergency dispatch call obtained by TMZ. A source told TMZ that she had been battling pneumonia.